getting ready for lunch.

well, as i said earlier, i am going to keep updating! at least i'll try!

anyhow. i'm back home in lawrence! the greeting wasn't quite exciting though. almost as soon as i came back, my allergies went haywire! my nose started running, my throat started hurting, and my head started hurting! i didn't realize that being away from kansas would make my allergies go all crazy!

i do miss that fresh minnesota air! it smelled so nice, and the air felt so soothing. it was crazy living on an island for a week. AND having no real access to the outside world! it's kind of a bittersweet return. i'm glad to have running water, and ability to cook without rationing water... but it was SO nice up there. i liked not having to be at anyone else's time schedules, i loved the lake water, and i loved the island itself. hmm....

anyhow, i'll be posting some pictures to my facebook soon. i uploaded them to the macbook, but haven't gotten them all resized and stuff. i'll work on that this week, as i get back to reality.

on a side note, i had my interview this morning. i think it went fairly well! time will tell, but i hope to goodness i got it! keep positive thoughts for me!

now, i'm getting ready to have lunch with cori! yay! we planned india palace, but catie's got me all hungry for falafel, so i might ask if she'd be willing to go for pita pit. i know it's not quite as good as indian food, but falafel sounds AMAZING! hmm... or maybe mad greek or aladdin cafe? mmm.. falafel.... LOL

alrighty folksters. catch you later!

really disappointed in myself.

i just noticed, i had one mere post for the entire month of july. and, it was a pretty lousy post at that. albeit, july was a busy month, i should have at least put a bit more effort into it. i guess the funk i've been in just took a toll on my ability to produce anything even bordering on semi-creative. (or at least as creative as one can be in an online journal entry)

while i'm not exactly home yet, i thought i'd make a few brief notes on the past week in minnesota.

a) it was an incredibly long drive (than compared to what i am used to) - think on the range of 12/13 hours (mostly delayed due to construction along I35. thankfully, i broke (and am breaking) each trip into two parts. the northbound trip, we stopped just north of st. paul for the night. the southbound, we are in story city, iowa.
a,i) st paul stay was quite nice.
a,ii) the story city stay has been a bit sketchy. there is something not right about the goings on here in this hotel. i'm ready to leave already.

b) lake vermillion was beautiful. i'll have pictures posted to my face-space soon enough, but they simply can't capture exactly what it feels like. not to mention, not having to look, or smell, presentable several days in a row is nice too. though, it does grow tiring not having fresh running water. (particularly for brushing teeth. bottled water is alright, but it just takes more effort LOL)

c) although i'm worried i am going to jinx myself, i figure i may as well mention- i was called and asked to do a job interview with KU parking dept. it was a bit nerve wracking, though, 'cos they called me on tuesday morning (while up at the lake) and asked if i could do the interview on thursday morning. i asked if there was any way it could be later, and the hiring manager said she'd have to get back to me. -- well, there was very little phone reception up there (i didn't even get the first call until much later in the morning) so i spent several hours wringing my hands in anticipation. finally, she called me back, and allowed me to come in on monday. B"H!

anyhow, i'm sure i have much more to say, but i need to get ready to head out. i want not only to leave this city, but i want to get back home ASAP so i can get everything done before monday morning. later folksters!

ugh, i need to pee. but don't want to get up.

it has come to my attention that i have become quite a lazy bastard when it involves updating my blog. i suck!

anyhow, i am on my way to lake vermillion right now, staying the night in a hotel in st. paul, MN. i'll update my blog for REAL once i return to the sunflower state, but i'll give you a few tasty morsels. or something like that.

right now, i'm enjoying my last little bit of internets, and watching some msnbc (i love me some msnbc!) currently on tap, to catch a predator i don't know what it is about this show, but for some reason, i can't stop watching when it's on. maybe that's MY compulsion? lol.

man... the ride up here was kinda nuts. just because there was so much construction on I35.

i'm reading and the band played on and it is taking me forEVER! it's very in-depth, and very.... i don't know, i'm not being so eloquent 'cos it's getting late, and i didn't sleep well last night. pick it up, though. it's a mere 630ish pages, but well worth it. i'm hoping to finish it up at the lake. we'll see how i stick to my goal. (i also want to go over my GRE study cards)

hmm... i suppose i should get back to my trainwreck tv. and then sleep. take it easy folksters!

musings on the past few months.

i'm a bit confused as to where exactly this year has gone. i seem to remember sneezing sometime between january 1st and today, but then if i think about that, another 6 months has gone by.

seriously, this year is now halfway over. and it has been a pretty rough one so far. economy has tanked, to be sure. a dear friend passed away. scott totaled his car. and i am nae employed.

it has also had its ups. i got to visit good friends in chicago. i took lauren, mavis, and sara to their very first drag shows. i redid my kitchen (which looks fantastic). and most importantly, i graduated college, finally.

i've also made some decisions on/about my life. not always good, but, why dwell. i am, to be certain, not moving to another country for the foreseeable future. i am, instead going to charge ahead with my masters in library management, and then, G-d willing, apply for the PhD in the same field.

finally, my body. i have been more uncomfortable about my body the past few months, than i've been since i was in my teens. i'm not exactly certain, but i feel it. i don't like the way my body looks, at all, and i don't like the way it feels when i do something as simple as jog. it has too much jiggle. i see so many people with nice, firm bodies. or even bodies that don't move nearly as much as mine when doing something as simple as walking, and i feel depressed. i'm always told not to compare myself to others, but when you are constantly flooded with images of nice, non-jiggly bodies, how else should one feel?

enough of my kvetching. take it easy my haverim.

i had a job interview on tuesday evening with headquarters counseling center. i'm not really sure how it went, but i'll find out by friday. i'd really like to have gotten the job, but if i didn't, i guess it wasn't meant to be.

in other news. i've decided, though passive aggressive, i have to get rid of the people in my life who are no good for me. by this i mean, people that make it their prerogative to exclude me from their lives simply 'cos their boyfriend has issues with said individual being friends with me. lame as all hell. i say passive aggressive, because i'm doing it in said manner. but, whatever it takes to accomplish the goal, that's what really counts, right?

oh, and two shifts left at hastings. it's really hard for me to wrap my mind around this, as it would have been 8 years. 8. eight. EIGHT years. that i'd been there on august 1st. absolutely fucking crazy. it's actually even kinda sad. yes, i said it. it's kinda sad. the end of my employ.

finally, i accidentally left a can of diet pepsi in my freezer when i left for topeka today, and it exploded. all over. i hate that!

anyhow. i think i'm going to go try to sleep. i've had a bit of trouble sleeping lately, so i'll take any i can get.
לשלום חברים שלי

i've always known i was overly sensitive, but lately, it seems i get totally frustrated/upset with things that shouldn't bother other people. :[ somedays, it just feels like one disappointment after another, and i really just need to get over it.

anyhow, i've got some shit to do around the house (still) i'm convinced every day off that i have, is spent doing nothing but housework. *sigh*

oddly placed dangling balls

i just read my first "book for pleasure" of the summer. happiness! it was laura moriarty's the center of everything. i read her book the rest of her life for a class this semester and really liked it, so, i figured i'd give this one a whirl. (in fact, i met the author, 'cos she is a professor at KU) i really liked this one as well. i can't decide which i liked more, they're both very different. hmm...

my next book on the list is christopher isherwood's down there on a visit. i'm going to work on that on the plane ride (and back) to chicago. we'll see how it is. i really liked isherwood's berlin stories, but i'm not certain i'll feel the same way about this one. whatever, it's just nice to read for pleasure yet again!

though, i also need to start doing some more studying for the GRE, and applying to more jobs.

and by the way, i also made out a resume template for myself, as well as a cover letter template. i hope to high heavens i can get a job soon. i need a job!

did i mention i'm going to go for the gold and work for my PhD in library and information sciences? well, i am. here's hoping i can do it!

mmk, i need to go try to sleep, 'cos i'm leaving pretty early in the morning. btw, chicag-ites! get in touch with me! will be there until sunday morning! going out to club hydrate tomorrow evening! if you want my number, email me at appletosh3@yahoo.com