early morning musings

i figured since i'm up, i may as well do something productive.

since coming back from germany, i have not been able to slip back into the regularly scheduled programming, that is the KS time zone. the first night, i was in an airport, so it's understandable i was unable to sleep. the second night, i woke up at 03.00, and then today, i managed to make it until 03.45

meh.

anyhow, while in the great land of DE, i decided to make some adjustments to my own life when i got back to the states. mainly, that i am going to start walking to and from work. it's really not far at all. 1.7 miles (2.74km) each way. so, i'll be able to sneak in 3.7 miles (5.48km) per day! at least, on the days that i walk to work. i'm sure there will be plenty of rainy days that i won't feel up to treking around in the water.

i'm also going to start altering my diet, so that i eat less processed food. and, so that i stop eating randomly, just because i'm bored, or because "well, obviously, at noon, we eat" - so much of the time, i will eat, just because i am "supposed to" and not because i'm actually hungry.

i ended up losing around 11lbs (5kg) while i was over in germany, and i'd REALLY like to keep it off! my pants (the ones that i bought because i couldn't fit into my OTHER pants) were getting tight, and now, they fit me quite well!

finally, soda. as i said several times, while i was there, i consumed about 0,5litre of pepsi light. that's ~16oz in over two weeks. here in the states, i was drinking 20oz (~0,6l) EVERY day! and that's on a light day! @ $1,70 per soda, that was costing me $11,90 per week! BEFORE taxes. (w/ tax, $12,93!) and that's if i only had one 20oz soda a day. frequently, on weekdays i had two. so, a whopping $20,40 per week before tax! ($22,14 after tax) hopefully, i can keep this up, put that $1,7 into a jar, and every month put that into my savings account for my next trek to detushland!

ok, sorry if you read this, it was kind of my own manifesto to keep myself motivated.

it's about 05.45 now, time to get ready for work.

what can i do!?! what can i do!?!

well, i've been using the wii fit for the past three days. at first i kinda assumed it'd be a joke, but i had a discussion about it with derek's hubby, chad. he said that it was really working him. well, as luck (or whatever) would have it, there was one for a very reasonable price at my work. (think 30$ off) i've got to say, my abs are killing me. every time i sneeze, it's torture! (which means i was in worse shape than i'd originally thought)

so yay chad! for recommending such a great tool!

for those of you who don't follow my facespace. i've been listing graduation present ideas. LOL. i realize no one should have to buy you anything, but these are a few items that might be necessary in the upcoming months.

i'd love a DSLR camera, an ipod nano (red or green 16g), a macbook air. i have some others to put up, but i don't want to reveal too much........

on an unrelated note. HOLY FUCKING SHIT I'M DONE WITH MY LIFE AS AN UNDERGRAD! (G-d willing) if i passed my PHIL exam on monday, i'll be a college graduate. it's rather hard to comprehend. and, i'm not truly sure it's hit me yet. and, i realize that it's not really that big of a deal, but for me it is. i flunked out of my first semester of university, and then dropped out of school altogether at one point. so this, for me, is big.

aside from that, i've just been whirling around the house, trying to get it nice and clean for company on sunday. it's amazing how much i'd let it go to pot. but, i thought i'd just take a moment and reflect while i listen to sigur ros and have the dog sleeping on the floor at my feet.

stix n' stones

i woke up this morning to an incredibly sunny day. it's been overcast since saturday morning, and i decided to make good use of the sunshine and read my text for western civ in the window. it was glorious to feel the warm sun on my skin. even ruby participated by lying on the floor where a sun-spot had warmed it.

i then checked my facebook email, and was surprised to find out i had won a contest! i entered to win a new furmintor (dual de-shedding tool) and i actually won! i rarely win anything, so this was quite a surprise! :] i'll let you know how well it works when i receive it.

anyhow, my dear friend christian (or as i like to call him, Xian) was visiting last week(end) for the easter holidays. he stopped by our place for a bit on saturday evening, and spread all sorts of happiness and mirth just by entering the house. long story short, he's finally convinced me i need to make it up to NY to visit him. sooooo, i'm looking at my options, scrimping and saving, and attempting to make the trip to stay with him in brooklyn for a few days this summer! (i'll also need to visit rach(a)el and her sister sarah when i go, too) while i'm gone, scott will try to make a trip to d.c. to visit his best friend Erin, so good times will be had by all! :]

i am impressed with myself, 'cos i actually did my PHIL homework ALL last night! i need to finish reading twilight of the idols for my HWC class and then finish reading tree of smoke for my ENG 325 class... but, i'm more caught up than i've been since the beginning of the semester, so that isn't too bad! ---i'm neglecting to mention the HWC paper, 'cos i don't want to think about it after a great morning. hahaha

and, this upcoming saturday is the TSO show that i will be seeing/listening to! a saint-saens organ symphony is just what the doctor ordered! and by doctor, i mean myself.

now, to read a bit, and then have lunch with scott. later, folksters!

sperm donor dad

okay, just so you know, i love you.

i am so very sore today.  my body is achey all over, particularly on my hands/wrists.  all that hard work and labor!  i feel so excited to have done that work!  yay for me!  and have i mentioned how much i love my kitchen?

i REALLY need to shave right now.  my beard is allllll kinds of crazy.  i need to trim my nails too. yeah, i've kinda let myself go the past few days/weeks :]  

last two things:

-i dropped my ENG 570 class 'cos i was reading 2 books a week JUST for that class.  which doesn't bother me, and i liked the professor, but when combined with the classes i actually NEED in order to graduate, it was just too much.

-i bought a new tv.  (don't judge me!) and now i get all kinds of television channels!  i just used to get around 23 channels, now i get something like 100!  and am paying no more for the cable bill!  and, now i'll be able to see the characters on my wii!  (i originally had a 19" tv, now i have a 32" tv LOL.  i feel so gluttonous!)

okay.  later folks.

those are the miracles you pray for...

...so get down on your knees!

i'm in an incredibly goofy mood right now!  i don't know why, i don't know how.  but, there you have it.  i'm all kinds of giggles, and have been dancing around the house with ruby while making marinara sauce for dinner.  

i have to go get scott at 3.30, and then rush him home, and rush myself back to work, woo!  good times!  

i have so much to read tonight/tomorrow.  i need to read my PHIL book, and need to work on my HWC (second paper).  and then saturday!!!  i get to put up the wall!  and i get to put in the counters!  derek you should come help!  i'll buy you dinner!  i'm serious!  exclamation point!

i have to figure out the backsplash still.  i've been told to try this little interior design place downtown, but they are expensive like WOAH!

speaking of expensive, i think we've shifted the car pick for scott.  and i'm not quite sure how he feels about it, 'cos it's more than he was wanting to spend... hmmmmmmm...  i think we'll be making our final decision friday.  (i hope so, 'cos i'm getting damn sick of driving him around all the time LOL)  it's not that i mind that much, it's just all the other little errands i have to run in addition.  ya know?  like having to run to the grocery store 3 times in a row, or having to get the crap i forgot on campus and running scott to get the stuff out of his old car... all that kinda stuff.

i ran through a bunch of "super bowl" recipes today, too, and i found a really yummy looking spinach/artichoke dip.  i'm pretty excited to try it out!  especially now that i have a new crock to cook it in!  yay!  

okay, i think i'm going to run around in circles for a bit before picking scott up.

verbal vomit

"the joker, please..."

still feeling sad, and i don't know why.  but i guess i'm feeling better?  i think i'd feel better if i were a bit more certain on some things in my life, but, life is rarely certain.  i think tomorrow after class, when i should be working on classwork, i'm going to watch a sad movie, and drink a bit of wine (or partake in some herbal refreshment).  

i have been stress eating recently, but thankfully it hasn't become a big problem yet.  (by which i mean, i haven't ballooned too much yet)  

on the subject of food, i found two new recipes i am going to try this week.  one is called "cheddar chowder" and the other is a recipe for pumpkin pankakes.  (they were both from this survivalist handbook, but i won't let that turn me off... completely)  i'll let you know how both of them taste.  (i'm hoping delicious!)

i have so much to do in the next week, and so very little time to do it.  but, i'm just taking everything one day at a time.  kinda like that soap opera right?  and btw, my phone has cocked up yet again.  at least once a day, i get the "white screen of death" and have to pull the battery out for 5m or so.  i cannot wait until i can get a new one...

final note.

one of my neighbor ladies (from my parent's home, who is pretty much my grandmother) was mugged last saturday night in her own driveway.  she was attacked from behind, her necklace and purse were stolen.  when i found that out, it made me feel sick to my stomach.  i can't believe someone would do that.  

quit it dog!

goodness me, i've got a bit of a sore throat.  damnit.  

i could feel it coming on friday a bit, but i think i wore myself down too much, and my body decided it could not fight it off.  

on a lighter note.  i did some yardwork today.  i raked up leaves, and then used my reel-mower to chop them to smitherines!  it took forever, but it'll be nice 'cos then they'll more easily decompose.  (not to mention won't blow around and cover the sidewalks as much)

hmm.  L&L came over today and visited our place.  i haven't seen them in forever!  it was nice though, and we got to catch up a bit.  

i have copious amounts of reading to accomplish.  we'll see how that goes.  and, thanksgiving is almost here.  holy shit where has the year gone?  still scheming a getaway.