more dreams.

i need to get ready for work, but i wanted to make a short note about my dream last night, elsewise, i'll forget it.

it was an entire day at work. sorta.

i drove there, and parked my car like normal. but as i was walking, lawrence turned into chicago. and then it turned into a part of cape cod (we'll say the harwich area). right, so i'm walking along the coastline to get into my building.

i get into the building, and i realize it's now snowing outside. then i'm told that something "happened" and everyone in the office is having to physically archive everything that's been done in the last year.

so we spend the day doing this, and i start to leave to go home. still snowing, still cape cod. (it doesn't switch back to chicago). i get to my car, and notice that everyone is leaving the parking garage at the same time, they're worried about the snow. this giant hummersized vehicle almost runs me over (it is actually a tiny old daihatsu rocky, http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Daihatsu_Rocky revamped and place on these HUGE tires). i get into my car, finally, and turn on the radio.

a "new" bjork song was playing, and the only words i can remember her saying were "burgers and petri dish-SPONGE!" with an emphasis on the word sponge. i saw a classmate from high school, waved, and woke up as i left the parking garage.

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i'm so freaking strange.

my bizarre dream.

i just woke up from a dream that really shook me up.

in this dream, i kept hiding in the small bathroom at my parent's house. i had rowen, but not ruby in there with me, and a bunch of blankets and towels on the ground. i kept looking at this car (an OLD red chevy blazer) out the window, but the bathroom door would start to open, and i would try to close it again. i kept hearing scott talking outside the door, but i didn't want him to know i was in there watching this car.

after a while i gave up on the hiding, and said i needed to go upstairs to the fish store. (?)

i get up there, and this big, buxom black lady starts showing me the fish for sale. it was a giant swimming pool (clear) full of male betta fish, and they had the most beautiful colors. in order to get the fish, the lady has to go INTO the pool (which is on the ceiling) and pick it up. i found one that i wanted, white with green/yellow fins that were really flowy. she starts to go in, but keeps grabbing the wrong fish. all of a sudden she screams to turn out the lights, and to hit the floor.

i'm looking out the window in the "fish store" now, and there are a bunch of guys shooting people. they've all jumped out of the red chevy blazer, and are shooting people left and right. the bullets come from the guns like bees out of a hive. they are bright red (they look like embers) and completely destroy whatever they touch (which is usually a person's face). i'm watching this whole event unfold, and can't stop.

all of a sudden, one of the guys notices me, and decides he is going to start shooting me. thankfully, i fall over before any of the bullets can hit me, but they end up shooting a cop in the face. his face looked like raw hamburger meat. then, the cops manage to get them all killed, and i wake up, as i jump into the pool of fish, searching for the right one.

a) what the FUCK does that mean?
b) why do i have to have such vivid, and terrifying dreams?

we do.

well, i've not a lot to say.

i'm tired. and i'm ready for friday. i may even go drink my weight in beer. (or not)

i'm cold, too. wtf is up with this autumn?

and hungry. i'm hungry.

there is probably a lot more i could say, but the computer and i are having a disagreement.

"i love creating disappointment"

we're not deaf.. until now.

i bought some fresh mozzarella balls tonight... damn i love cheese! i know i should have made those into something, or at least IN to something... but they taste so great, i think i'll end up eating them all plain.

i am tired.

there needs to be a way for me to visit some friends. i want to see some dear, dear friends. but i don't have either the time or the money. just know, i MISS YOU!

i'm frustrated with my body. i started working out again, 'cos i've gained quite a lot of weight since i started my new job.. and i've actually put on even MORE weight since i started exercising. i hate it. so much. (okay, i NEED to get over that)

i think i'm going to watch an episode of the nanny, and then head to sleepy-land.
later folksters.

shake the baby. no, don't shake the baby.

well folksters, the sleeve is pretty much done. judith put the finishing block of color (around my elbow, ouch!) onto it last night, and it looks so... complete? i don't really know just how to describe it, it has been such a process and it's a little strange to think it's done (minus touch-ups here and there, and some little "finishing touch" kinda things) we also had a fantastic dinner to kind of celebrate the event :]

no need to fear, though, i already have an unfinished project we are working on, and two others in the thought process! huzzah! (just nothing NEARLY as complicated as the really rosie sleeve) but, grand in their own right!

on the agenda for today.
1) do some housework. the place is a freaking pigsty.
2) do a few hours of work-work.
3) dinner with the folks in topeka.

on the topeka note.. i'm trying to convince the little man that a move to topeka wouldn't be all that disastrous. i found a cute place near 8th and macvicar that would be perfect for us. and since it is in topeka, it would be almost half the cost it would be in lawrence. (which is disturbing) but, it would mean a daily commute. for the boths of us. i'm not quite sure i have myself sold on the idea yet either.

meh. time to get moving. (no pun intended)

okay... we're losing power.

i am watching harriet the spy right now. yes, faithful readers, harriet the spy. why? because i don't feel like turning the channel, surfing throw gobs and gobs of AWFUL programming.

dinner tonight, consisted of delicious take out from cielito lindo. ahhhh... my tummy is so happy!
i'm also happy because i've got two ADORABLE little pups sprawled on the floor in front of me, being very quiet.

i am unhappy, because i'm stressing out about this house situation. i am worried about a lot, but right now, it's the idea that i could theoretically be paying rent on the place i live now, and then a mortgage on the "other" place. that does not sound lovely.

okay, for now, i'm going to watch roseanne for a few minutes, and then perhaps, do some work. (like, job work) still trying to build up a little comp time for the winter break. oh who am i kidding, i'll probably be asleep on the couch within the hour.

take it easy, folksters.

ps, thanks for the support allison!

i haven't played in a long time...

i am updating while sitting on the ground. why? because i've got two huge ass doggles taking up the entire couch. sucks for me. ;] actually, it's pretty nice, i love them, and they're finally sleeping. (plus, it's so freaking cute when they sleep on top of each other)

i only worked 4 hours today, which stinks, but i had a lot of other stuff to do. (plus, one of the passwords was changed, so i had limited access to some of my systems) but, i got some things assigned, and i was able to build up some comp time for my upcoming "vacation" - when school is out for winter break.

well, we took a "tour" of the house on prairie, and it was pretty nifty! i really liked the set up, and i liked the space. the kitchen and bathroom would NEED updating, but even so, that'd be something i'd LOVE to do! i need to do some work with looking at lenders now. and hopefully we'll qualify for an FHA first time homebuyers loan. that would only require 3.5% down, and we could manage that. keep your fingers crossed!

hmm, what else? not terribly excited tomorrow is monday, that's for sure.
oh, and i trimmed up my beard and head. now i don't look like a hairy beast. PLUS, i shaved my left arm, so my sleeve looks much, much better!

alrighty, it's about time i start getting ready for bed.

hot-patootie

i've got this throbbing headache. it's pounding, and i can feel every little movement behind my eyes and in my temples. it is starting to border on nausea.

i think it might just be fatigue, but it could very easily be a migraine. it is that time of the year.

i'm considering just trying to go to sleep right now, 'cos i don't know if i'll be able to drive to topeka. maybe the ibuprofen will start to kick in. hopefully.

tomorrow = 6 hours of work, and a tour of a house. goodness i hope it all works out.

i thought benson was having an affair with ms. ellie

i'm pretty stoked. it's friday evening, i am going to do get some comp time by working on sunday (by CHOICE!), and i'm also going to take a tour of the house on sunday!

today was just crap at work, though. lots and LOTS of crazies. it lent itself to my eating fast food. which is never a good thing. but, i have pretty much the best co-workers/bosses ever. so that made it much, much better!

oh, i watched rocky horror picture show last night. my goodness, i always forget how much i LOVE that movie. i've decided i want to do a reverse gender version of it. that is to say, i'd have a woman pray frank'n'furter, riffraff, brad.. and a man play columbia, magenta, and janet. but, still dressed up as the correct gender. (so, a backwards transvestite transvestite of sorts)

i would want to play magenta. she's my favorite.

okay, i should do some laundry. i need to be "productive" - or something like that...

easy? it's impossible!

i am exhausted. i have a few things to mention, though, so i'll be updating anyhow.

1) i need to trim my beard and shave my head. i'm all bushy! i look like a beast! hehehe
2) i had a nice evening with the scott. we even ran into tom and B at target (i picked up yet another space heater, 'cos our place is already SO cold)
3) we drove by the house i want to look into. the roof and siding look very nice, the foundation looked good from the outside. it even has a two car width carport behind it! we're going to try and tour it this weekend.
4) i am going to go watch some golden girls for a few moments and drink some diet pepsi.

there you have it. brief, but an update nonetheless.

we'll go.

ugh, i've got an ear infection in my right ear. it sucks on several levels.
1) because it hurts
2) because it kinda muffles sound
3) because every time rowen or ruby bark, my ear hurts even more.
i hope it goes away. soon.

anywhoodles, i am going to drive by this house that is for sale tonight. it's less than 100K, and has 2br, 200' more than the house we're in now, and it'd be OURS, as opposed to a rental agency's. it's pretty cute (from the pictures)

i've started the 8-5 month at work (did i mention that already?) which is actually less preferable than the 7.30-4.30. yes, it means i have 30min more in the mornings, but i still wake up at 6.15, so that doesn't matter that much. but, now i deal with EVERYONE else driving on campus at the same damn time... it's particularly awful at 5, because i'll end up sitting at a stop sign for 3mins waiting for everyone to cross.

okay, enough bitching. i need to go DO!

dork. love.

damnit! i forgot to update yesterday!

anyhow, i had an eventful weekend! unfortunately, it went FAR too quickly! yesterday, i finally did some yardwork that i'd been putting off. (in particular, i did the composting that's been neglected, and picked about 3lbs of tomatillos)

i also downloaded a game for my wii that i LOVED as a kid. i'm about to play it now! woo!

i brought the paph to work today, two people commented on how beautiful it is. (and i have to agree) it was a pain to get to work, though.

okay, i'm too excited to play my game. later folks!

how should i know?

i've got two sweet puppies, and a sweet, sweet man - sitting on the couch with me. we're watching the simpsons, and enjoying the fruits of a productive day.

we went to the pumpkin patch this morning, pretty much my favorite october tradition! i got a nice oval orange one, and then a green and white striped one. they're pretty awesome! mavis got one that looks like it has warts, and scott got a "ghost" pumpkin, and a little red one that looks like an onion.

after that, we had lunch, and went to the nursery. i got a new orchid for my office cube! it's a paphiopedilum (lady's slipper) orchid. scott got a "scented geranium" for his office. it smells like lemon!

we also watched some MST3K (pod people). i love me some pod people. LOL.

mavis and i also took a little trek downtown. we got a nice new piece of glasswork. it's quite nice!

now, we come to the beginning of my post (or whatever) - had a nice dinner of junky food with scotty. :]

conundrum.

it's october! holy crap! where has this year gone?

in terms of work, the month came in pretty shitty. so many assy people came in today. i just don't understand why people are so rude. i'm so glad the work day is over. (but, tom came by, so that made it much nicer :)

at the moment, scott is watching project runway. and i'm kinda boycotting it this season. at least until one of the designers gets kicked off. he irritates me so much. ick.

hmm.. i spent a crap ton of money on a simpsons dvd set. but, i love me some simpsons, so it's worth it.

ps. i love the word wroth. and agglutination.

okay, i'm going to drink some diet pepsi, and maybe do some laundry.